So well.I told her the truth.gosh why am I such a heartbreaker.frankly speaking what have I done for her? And what has she done for me? She always cares about my feelings but do I? I always want her to stay up late, party on Thursday nights when she’s working and never really think about her feelings.yeah….she will always give in to me even though my requests are somehow unreasonable such as asking her not to play mj.she needs her freedom..and she always give in to me…..asking me for permission for my opinions cause she CARES.and i got admit that she actually understands what kind of person I am which I hate it.its jusy me that I don’t like people to know too much about me.sigh.sigh she’s really a potential lifetime partner.c’mon.I’m dating a girl not guy.I ought to stop acting like a princess and expecting my partner to give in that much.someone so sincere so devoted and loyal is looking at you xy.there might be cutecutes or hot girls out there but they will never be like her.please treasure this relationship…
What feeling is this that I feel indifferent about everything.Including you.I don’t know if this is normal or just me but yesterday on the dancefloor I was looking at other girls instead of focusing on only you.boredom? I hope not.but I don’t deny to have this feeling at some point of time in the relationship.I just don’t get it when people can always only think about their partner and not even attempting to flirt.it’s really that difficult to commit.3months ago my post was so sure and undoubtedly true that i’d never get bored of this love.but now I’m unsure.really.Maybe I’m jusy too young to know whats love or maybe I’m not someone who can fully commit for a lifetime? She’s an awesome girl who never fails to persuade me that this love is gonna last.please cherish her xy.don’t end up regretting like a dumbass.
Time check 3.17am 7/1/2013
been such a long time since i last posted a post on my private tumblr.I still remember I used to be so emo and sentimental about J last year.Still remember how I spam posts on tumblr whenever i was upset and drunk.Though I remember all these memories,I dont seem to recall the feelings of being upset.All sadness seems to fade away because I met the best girl for around 7months for now?life has never been so happy and I rarely get moodswings.Well,actually I do but those happiness seems to surplus the feeling when i am moody.Throughout my teenager days,I’ve always doubted myself if I can actually love someone and not suddenly lose interest in my partner.I thought I could never know the meaning of love.Well,its my 182nd day together with love.I still love her as much as I loved her before.No.I love her even more.Everything about her.How she changed me.Just look at my tumblr posts,before that i had mostly emotional posts/pictures but now?Almost all about cats.:) ( dont know why im tearing now) and yeah! got to say she’s the person I teared for most.not because we quarreled but because I love her.too much I always get emotional about it.haha! scorpios.I dont know why I have this very bad habit.To envision myself losing her.I think it’s due to the overwhelming fear of losing her.I always overthink about the situation and end up tearing hahah!Okay time to continue my K-drama.just suddenly feel like typing out how i feel about my awesome love.:)
Hope you are having sweet dreams now baby.I love you.